Of Me......

First of all, I really dunno how to give a title for this entry..Well generally, I'll talk more about me this time like blah blah blah..So I thought the title is suitable 101%. Ohh..I hope its not too late to say halo Nov..although its already the 3rd. Whatever..I'll say halo if I want to.Who cares then? LOL

After all these few hectic days..Oh well its really hectic!! I've been thru a lot..Yep!! I think that I can novel it all and can start to sell it over the world...Perhaps no one will buy it..Hahah. See, this craziness started to haunted me. Generally I will be a bit bengong2 during the end of the month. Its work thingy. The busyness will automatically interrupt me..Cehhhh!! I rarely get happy at the end of the month. Heyyyy..Its payday time,are you crazy not to be happy? I guess Im not. Hahah..Its juz too many to settle, and people there will said to me..."Nahh..nda lama ko jadi deputy general manager".LOL.. It'll never happen. They juz tease me around, because of the seriousness of my face. Well,its my norm. I always got this serious face when im doing my work..Im concentrating. But thats it..enough about work. Nothing interesting though.

Yahhh...Well,these few days also,I think that I have a bad day.But I never will called it a unfortunate day. Last few days, I almost involve in an accident while heading back home from works. Its 8.30 PM and its very dark surrounding. Well, I have to pass this palm oil estate in order to get back home. People said, dont lose your focus while driving, I knew it!! But sadly, I voided it. I'm speeding as at more than 90 km/h and I saw this animal at the edge of the road...And thats when I started to lose my focus!! At that speed, and when I saw in front of me...Im juz realize that Im now at the edge of the road. Panic attacking me,and Im start to go back to the road. But moving the steering wheel too much is not a good idea. 

I started to experience this zig zag movement, and that moment I realize..How its feel when you are involve in an accident. The only that you can remember is GOD. And you will experience this feeling of "let it be" aka pasrah. But Im lucky enough to remember to press the brake paddle. Im really thank GOD that I safe from the accident. Only GOD knows how my heart beats a thousand times faster than usual. And I cannot stand that my tears came out. Honestly,its scared me. And that night, I juz kept silent and managed to take my rest early.

But honestly, that experience do keep me getting stronger. I realize the next day, I became more careful and I improved my driving ways. Im happy for that. So enough with that. Another story tale to tells, this lately I also experienced this emotional instability. I easily get offence, emotional, angry and etc etc..Something wrong a bout me. And obviously, I  pissed off easily. Once people makes me angry, I will get angry million times more. I will talk this and that like a crazy women..But hey..Who else can react like a crazy maniac other than a pissed off women???Women is a unique, complicated, hard to deal with..So, patience is highly needed to deal with me. Im sorry that I maybe hurt someone, but at that moment..Im emotionally unstable.. But believe me, I never meant it.

After having these all dramatic thingy happened to me, starting tomorrow, I will have 3 days of happy holidays. For a moment, I want to forget everything that I've been thru..I wish to have a good shopping and resting a lot at home.Nope!! Im such a liar..hahahha..actually, I will go for my last driving class and take a test. Im not confident about it..Oh well, driving a manual car is so so so much different from the automatic car. And driving an automatic car everyday is never gonna helps me improve, unless for the steering wheel control. But thankful that my boyfriend helps me sometimes to learn to drive a manual ones. Hopes that I'll not forget everything that I've already learned from him. Juz have that faith. Be confident while driving. And be classy perhaps. LOL.............

OKOK...enough enough!! I wrote a lot tonight..and its all about me. Well its my blog anyway. Hehe... Its late now, go take some rest first. GUD NITE!!